Excuses

I was never fond of excuses. Maybe because I expect people to have time  for me.

"The world doesn`t revolve around you, carper!"

I know that, there`s no need to remind me.

I`ve pledged to myself that I will try my best to make time for everyone because I constantly remind myself how important everyone is to me. Especially to those who are more important than everyone else that is important. Twisted? Figure it out lah.   

I`d give a few examples ya. Firstly, if mum tells me to wash the dishes, I`ll do them but unfortunately with apathetic behavior. Even though it seems like I`m not sincere, but hey, im doing it ! At least. And eventually when I realize that I feel forced to do it, I redirect my intention and say "Lillahitaala". Settled.

Next, if I were to wake up from my sleep, and a friend invites me to skype, with all my apathetic behavior, I would still say yes. Even tho I can barely open my right eye widely. Because there is no excuse to saying no when people remembers you. 

Furthermore, if I were to read a novel I would sometimes reread a paragraph just because I got lost of how the story line is like in the next para. However when I read the Quran (and lets just be honest) I never even bother to reread the translation even though I dont understand. But then again, the Iman inside my head told me, "What kind of excuse can you give to not understand a verse in the Quran? Reread it!" I hope you can see the light of what im trying to explain = There is no excuse!

I barely know what kind of sense im making, but I hope, that I would always be able to make time for the Almighty as well as the people around me. Because I do believe that if you matter to me, then there`s always time. But it seems like in my world, everyone is important so everyone matters. It seems impossible to accomplish, but I`ll never know if I never try. 

I rant about how it is unfair for some people to not make time for me maybe because I`m at my leisure. Maybe because I haven`t been at my hustling times yet. Maybe when everything starts, and by everything I mean my studies and trips and coursework starts, maybe Then we can judge how I handle my time at work and my time with the people around me. 

We shall see.