Fix

So it's a bit typical for me to be starting off this post with a 

                                  "Everyone makes mistakes"

quote. Only because it's too archetypal that I have a feeling it will make this post boring. I’m only pointing it out just so I can save myself from the destruction of poise I always try to give myself every time I write a post for my blog.

Anyhoo, let’s just hope this one turns out good for you and I.

I, personally have been friends with a particular person (I learnt a lot from) since primary education up until now (that sums up to 10 years of friendship-which rejects the permission of me bragging on and on about her).

We have always been friends but she completely transformed into this whole other person when she met a guy. Well, I don’t like to put the blame on the guy but more to this friend of mine.

Ok I guess that’s enough of personal stuff going on. Let’s focus on how is it can I generalise this topic I wish to chatter about.

Mistakes can be divided into so many categories because the word mistake itself is so vague. Mistakes can be intentionally, unintentionally, realisable, repeatable, respectable and many other beautiful arts of mistakes.

However, it is vital for one to repent after one makes mistakes. By repenting I do mean asking for forgiveness either from The Almighty Allah or from the people that they have wronged to. I mean come on, if we don’t apologize, we’re not doing ourselves a favour at all.

It is so unfair for someone to make mistakes and does not ask for forgiveness. Nor is it fair for someone to do wrong to other people and act like nothing happened. Because that just seems like they are in a situation where the world is falling apart with the skies come cracking down to the ground and the ground is separating apart because of the earthquake but they,

They walk on as if the sun is shining bright and the skies are still blue and as if everything is still in its place just as it is.

                                                                        When, it is not.

So I find no sense and reason behind these type of people. I seek from Allah from letting me end up being someone as such.

Someone please explain to me the logic behind

“I made a mistake, it is simply their fault, I don’t need to apologize”

Oh wait, I’ve got it. Ego.

I already feel bad writing this but I really do want to express my thoughts. I guess I’m gonna stop there and really write what I feel and what I wish to tell this person I have inside my head.

(I know I know I said I wanted to make this post a general one and stop the personal cheesy stuff but I can't help myself okay I'm sorry goshhhh)

Dear you,

Despite the years that we have been friends, I sincerely do want to keep this going on but you’re making it hard. I wish you grew up the way we grew up. I meant emotionally and mentally matured. We are 19 years old and we are turning 20 soon for God’s sake. I will never lie to you about missing or loving you because that will only end up as a white lie that will only hurt you even more. You scuffed that out of me and left me to feel less for you.

I never want to make things worse for you because I know that you feel like you have a bad life, a bad family, bad friends, bad teachers and everything around you is bad. But if only you could change your mindset or let me help you. My problem is, you never open the doors for me or any of our friends.

It has been years that we try to understand you, feel you, talk to you and even change you. It would be dumb of me to say that we have been able to understand and feel you because we will never be able to be in your shoes as we ourselves might be busy being too attached with ours. It would even be dumber if I say that we can change you because words…

Words mean nothing to you, do they?

Well at least you make me think it is.

I really, thoroughly feel bad for you and not in the sense where I would want to leave you behind but I’ve tried all that I can but you’re not cooperating. I lent you my hand but you’re not getting up. Note that I can’t help you if you’re not helping yourself out.

I’m sorry for every bit of particle that I’ve wronged you. I’ve asked and asked and asked and at the end of the day, I’m tired. I still do feel sorry for you. I wish we can work this out because broken things are meant to be mended even if it seems like there’s no way out. There’s always a way out because we all know how when there’s a will, there is always a way.

I can do nothing more than what I have done so I seek Allah’s help to open our hearts to be better people and to fix what is broken. Verily our hearts are only and only in Allah’s hands. I am not in power of changing of what has happened but I know He can help us out.

I’ve missed the way we were and I’ve forgotten what’s it like to actually feel how we were back then.

May Allah bless us all. We can fix this.

Well at least,

I trust that we can.