This Heavy Feeling

I so have to lose weight!

It's getting out of control, my weight is getting back to the weight I forbade myself to reach. My RED ZONE weight! The last time I was this heavy was in 2012, when I was 15 :( I have to lose weight seriously.

I hate this feeling of heaviness, this load - fat that I have to carry unpleasantly around and my thighs, my arms, my feet feels so bloated ughhh this is so bad! This chubbiness on my face is too much I have to freaking slim down :(

Double chins!!!!!!!!!!

Worst enemy ever.

Collar bone,

gone.

(not that I want to show my collar bone to anyone, i'm a hijabi for crying out loud, but hey, it's nice to have a collar bone)

My beautiful rings don't fit my beautiful fingers anymore??

Blaze On

Hi there two thousand and seventeen 💞

Haven't been blogging for months since Results Day as you can see 😂 but I have always wanted to blog like every week ever since! Have had a lot of things going on and travelled to some places that I would want to share on my blog but not, just yet, however I will get back to that perhaps in summer break (in... like... 6 months time...?). We shall see. 

But today, I am taking one fifth of my study time just to share something that I've experienced yesterday.  So Angelika and I went to Camden Town just so that we can have some time to ourselves after that terrifying and disastrous maths mock we had last Wednesday. It also happened that I remembered I wanted to change my broken night string lights at Blaze On so this just adds up to the reasons as to why I should go out. And breathe some fresh air. 

Long story short, we went there and Blaze On was our first stop. I remembered the owner of the shop very well but I don't think he did since, ya know, he's got lotsa customers himself. So I get it, not offended at all, okay, at all 👐 So I chose my lights to exchange for and I asked,

"Do you happen to have any outlets internationally? As in, in a different country?"

Heee, I'm just tryna give some hints that I'm not a local citizen and that I love his crafts and would like to bring some back to Malaysia and alsoooo, if they're broken can I ever change them like I did yesterday? 

"No we don't miss, but we do ship worldwide! Where you from?"

"Malaysia!"

Blessed

"Wanna be there at 12?"

"Ain't that too late? Come with me around 10-ish cause curiosity will only kill me the longer I wait."

"I'm not excited for it tbh, wanna go to BC for a bit after? Grab ice cream and then go home?"

"I'm not excited myself but i told you, curiosity will kill me. Ice cream sounds great tho"

"Okie dokie, see you tomorrow xx".

The day has finally come. The day we have all been waiting for. We, as in my friends and I. 

And our parents. 

And our teachers. 

Oh well. It will come anyway no matter how much we don't want it to. 

To be honest, we were all so nervous but at the same time, I loved how we had so much faith in each other. We were so strong as a large Maths group, we worked so well throughout the whole year. Everyone helped everyone. Everyone was rooting for everyone...

To get As together. 

Fix

So it's a bit typical for me to be starting off this post with a 

                                  "Everyone makes mistakes"

quote. Only because it's too archetypal that I have a feeling it will make this post boring. I’m only pointing it out just so I can save myself from the destruction of poise I always try to give myself every time I write a post for my blog.

Anyhoo, let’s just hope this one turns out good for you and I.